Journal 4: Return To Petersburg: Chasing-
Today, I returned from a 6 month search for my love. I followed Nastyassa for 6 months, trying and pleading her to be with me. That’s why I havent blogged for 6 months….
To no avail.
I learned that after the tumultuous party, Rogozhin and his friends had a week-long orgy. Talk about disgusting…. I hate that man. Anyways, so Nastyassa decided to heck with this- I’m going to Moscow and soon left Rogozhin. I, when learning this, went with godspeed to Moscow. But so did Rogozhin. He got to her first, and pleaded with her to marry him. She did and then ran off!!!! Imagine that. In the meantime, I was busy connecting with the Yepanchin’s friends who had become quite enchanted by me. They told the Yepanchin’s about my recent acquaintance with them and that pleased the General very much, however I learned he had forbidden his family to speak about me until I wrote them back. As for the Ivolgins, a lot changed in their household in these six months. Varya married Ptitsyn. Nina Alexandrovna and Ganya moved to Ptitsyn's house with Varya. General Ivolgin was put in debtor's prison, largely due to the efforts of his mistress, the widow of Captain Terentyev. Nina Alexandrovna secretly visited him in prison. Kolya became friends with the Yepanchins, and the only member of that family who did not like him was Aglaya. One day Kolya brought Aglaya a letter from Myshkin in which the prince merely asked her how she was doing and said he wished for her happiness. The Yepanchins left for their summer residence in Pavlovsk, a small town near St. Petersburg.
But basically all that to say, my chase was a failure.
I also tried to get what I thought was going to be my million ruble fortune, however that didn’t work. I got much smaller than I thought. Plus I had to pay all these people off. Turns out, a lot of those people I had to “Pay off” were fakes… Didn’t make me so happy. Anyways I am still sick over Nastyassa. I wish she was in my life…
Signed, Lev Nikolayevich Myshkin
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